That does it.
Fuck the four year degree. I'm transferring to Oakton Community College when we move back, getting their associates degree, and as soon as I get a couple of years of experience, moving to Italy.
I want out of this country.
I'm sick to death of telling people why they're stupid. Why these rabid anti arab statements just play into the media's hands, why being gung ho for war, like lambs to the slaughter is not only premature at this point but is just plain useless. I'm sick of reminding people that in the Oklahoma City bombing, it was blamed on the middle east until they caught the American that did it. I'm sick of seeing the same two second video clip that is remnant of world war 2 stock footage to get people to enlist, played on repeat and watching the outraged reaction of people that are too blind to see when they are being manipulated. I'm sick of racist, anti arab remarks, not like most Americans really needed an excuse to hate Arabs anyways.
Of course I could say something about how we Americans have a gross double standard: we're all behind the US invading other countries, destroying lives, killing innocent civilians and all else, safe in the knowledge that there was never a war on our soil, only to act with horror and outrage when we got attacked. Although there might be a grain of truth to this, it is callous and bordering on a cliche.
I could say something about how my cousin in DC with the government job may or may not be okay, and that my Dad is trying to get a hold of his sister in Long Island to check on that. But I am oddly worry free. I have seen so much death these days that I'm beyond associating it with things, and I'm painfully aware of how it can come from the least expected places. I'm going to hope for the best, because it's enough to deal with the deaths that have occurred over the past few years, without tangling with those that might have been.
But most of all, I just want to say that I want to leave this country. I want to go to Rome. There's so much that angers and upsets me on a daily basis, and all I want to do now is leave. Expatriate. Go to the awe astounding beauty of Rome.