So, the whole apartment is in disarray, gradually migrating into boxes.
I started a new painting yesterday. It's the second one so far in a series that I'm doing.
I haven't been doing enough artwork lately. I haven't been painting as much and need to really get in gear with my comic book. I guess I've been a little frustrated lately.
I have mixed feelings about school. The other day, I was on AIM. I was talking to someone I know who is an out of work web designer. I sent him something I was doing on Flash, explaining that I'm still learning the stuff, but that this would just give him an idea of what I've been doing. I showed him the "thatsanice" piece and he said "the girl needs to be talking". Hmph. Says who? I actually liked the talking balloon factor and besides since I'm only doing this shit on my dinky little machine, I don't have all the stuff to make it as snazzy as I would like. I don't even have a microphone. Eh fuck it, he's unemployed so it's kind of a case of the blind leading the blind, anyways, isn't it?
One of the reasons I have been mixed with doubt about school is the whole formal art education thing. I do kind of like the idea on the one hand, but I have always loathed drawing classes. Everytime I take a drawing class, it always feels really stifling and oppressive. At times it has even gone so far as to temporarily take the joy out of my creativity. I still will probably go through with school plans but it definitely gives me something to think about.
I think too, to a certain extent, I really have my reservations about attempting to be an artist in a corporate environment. There's part of me that feels that I should try to do something more artistic. That as a job it will be more desirable, more fun. But then there's a part of me that thinks it could just be really exasperating, the antithesis of creativity.
Eh, I don't know. Maybe I should just follow that dream of opening a gallery or something. I mean I have a lot of things I'd like to do...my own animated movie, paint, my own comic...but when it comes to the whole "professional artist" thing, I'm not sure I want to sell that to the highest bidder. And I'm not sure where that brings me with school. I suppose it's cheap enough that I can learn the stuff for my own self edification. And I know I can still do a lot of good stuff with it. But I've analysed this and analysed this and I just don't know about doing this stuff in an office environment.
I figure though that I'll just take a bunch of stuff this fall and play it by ear, gradually figure it out as I go along...