I can't do this.
It's raining out, I just called a cab to go into work and they told me that it would be an hour before one could even pick me up. I can't fucking do this.
Yesterday, I had to take the bus to work. Well, I had to take two. The first one only came about half a mile from my transfer stop, so I had to walk in the heat with no sidewalks, through weeds and mounds of grass and cars tearing along right next to me. Then, it took me about a quarter mile, so I got to do the same thing uphill in an even more rural part of town.
And today I couldn't get a fucking cab.
I get paid today. I checked my payroll information on the intranet and apparently, they shorted me out of six of my hours. So after that last paycheck fiasco, now Im out something like sixty bucks. I really am not happy.
What makes matters worse is that yesterday I was actually enjoying my job. I started to feel, for the first time, like I knew what I was talking about. I started to feel competent, really on top of things, good at what I do.
But that makes it worse because everything is so impossible. It's frustrating as hell to work there but I don't particularly want to quit and wind up working at a Target or some such thing.
And now I'm going to be late. I was already worried about the sick days I took, because they really are sticklers for attendance, and now I have all these transportation problems to boot.
And I still have to worry about getting a cab back tonight. I'm catching an amtrak less than an hour after I get off work so I have to worry about actually making that train.
This sucks. This really, really sucks.