okay,I know how much I bitched about Milwaukee when I was there last.
And while I have some distinct reservations,I've decided I'm going back.
Why?
Simple. I can get a one bedroom apartment for under $400 a month and the school up there is offering me a scholarship.
I suppose material comfort is not the most noble of resons to move to a place but to be fair my problems were really only with a few people there. And I'll be busy enough that hopefully I won't notice the tendencies toward drama I observed when there last.
Also,I dont have much choice. I checked out a couple of roommate situations. One was in such crackland deathville even I had doubts about living there. It was also the size of a closet,with a month and a half deposit and I was under the distinct impression the guy wanted me on the lease so he could bail on it and leave me with the whole three bedroom place. The other place I saw would have been with a guy who gave off definite sleaze vibes.
Running out of time and hating my seven an hour job more every day,I decided it would be in my best interest to leave. I know I can find a place to live in Milwaukee. I'm all set for school and I even have leads on a few jobs.
After all,it doesn't mean much to be in a city with alot to do if I can't actually afford to go out and do them or if I have a hard time affording a place to live.
So...
I've also realized that I don't care too much for human resource work. Well,my job is pretty much shit. What I do is simple:I take inbound calls from a variety of companies. I pretend to actually be working for these companies and ask a series of questions,enter data and determine whether the person calling gets a job interview or not.
The problem is,despite the fact that I don't much like having the power to decide who gets a chance at a job and who doesn't,but the criteria is set up so that the person who jumps through the hoops--despite how professional,articulate,interested or anything else--is the one who gets the job. I have had to screen out people who are completely interested and enthusiastic and experienced,because they give the wrong answers for those inane"psychological profile"questions(and any psychologist could tell you how invalid three questions to determine one's ability to function in the given positions are)while someone who is bored and watching television and most likely will stop showing up after three days or else cause the demise of good service at this particulatr locale,will get a shot at the job.
Add in getting to answer twenty questions from call backs who haven't got the job and trying to complete an application for someone who literally does not know what state they're in or refuses to answer any given questions but still says they want to apply for the job,or any number of things...
Plus the blandness of an "office casual"environment{blah}makes it hardly worth the seven dollars an hour.
So I don't think I'll miss that job too much. I think when I get to Milwaukee I'll see if I can get some sort of cafe job or maybe try to get a cocktail waitressing position somewhere.
What will be interesting
Is going to an all women's school,where I expect to spend a significant portion of my time,due to the very heavy course load that Ive got. Ive had doubts about going to an all womens' school.It could be really good or really bad.While I may have had a girlfriend or two in my day,for the most part Ive found women to be catty and competetive.On the other hand,it may help me with my vow to not date any guys until I sort through all the stuff from my last relationship.
On a plus note,my ex and I went for a few drinks Monday night. It was nice. It was the first time since the breakup that we've been able to hang out like that. It actually felt like we're friends and I was able to see why I stayed with him as long as I did,while still being happy with the fact that I'm single again.
On a conspiracy note...
Ive decided that Columbine was a government plot. Yep,a couple of kids go psycho in a school then kill themselves before anyone can really ask any questions. The effect is not unlike some drug induced psychosis. Of course everyone wants a scapegoat. I say we scapegoat the government. After all,they're the only ones who have gained from this. Everyone has been blamed from goths to jocks. Through it all the government has been able to push ideas that would ordinarily be seen as great infringements on our rights,all out of the fear of another such outburst. I saw a picture of kids bags being inspected today. Not just put through a metal detector but thoroughly inspected,emptied out,leafed through. Not just one kid's bag either,every kid in a Chicago high school. So where does it stop? Just what are they looking for? What happens to the kid who happens to have reading material which may be considered"objectionable"?(it could be anything..an occult text,politically subversive writings,etc.)and what is the psychological efect on teenagers who have to go through inspections rivalling many airports just to attend class for the day?
What about the push for gun control laws? That's horribly convenient too. After all,its a lot harder to protest when it's argued as being "for the safety of our children"but is it really? And whatever happened to good ol' parental responsibility? Why is the government setting curfews? Why is legislature passing the laws on what is allowed in a home or what children can be exposed to or what is "safe"after all isn't that the responsibility of those who conceive the children? One can argue they arent taking the responsibility but are they not taking the responsibility or is the responsibility being taken from them?
Anti smoking campaigns...drug crackdowns...hell,when you can't even jaywalk for fear of a penalty it becomes apparent that so many of our rights are being eroded"for our own good"
And in my mind's eye I cant escape the picture of security guards inspecting kids bags as they walk through a metal detector on the way to algebra class...