The symbolism there is quite obvious.

Playing roles...not doing important responsibilities...sigh,I'm depressed.

Saw name deleted. I confirmed he had that party. Saw name deleted--he barely said hello. Didn't go into...And I only got a B+ on my Epistemology exam.

I don't want to go vote today.

I think I'll take History of Ethics and Intro to Clinical tho' the tower sorta scares me.

All these dreams...name deleted as an actor, mistaking someone else for him...metaphors? Guilt and torment by aspects of him that cause me suffering,fear and humiliation?

Piscean qualities...

temperamental...moody...persecution complex...passive...sociable...distractible..

And that's the thing, a virtue can become a vice...

Ugh. I hate Psychology's attitude towards relationships.

I feel lke if I'm not some prissy, touchy feel suburban housewife, I don't fit in with my gender.

It's like when I got strep throat.

I can't do this...

like...before.

Three strikes...third time. bad things come in threes.

I asked my dreams to tell me...

Every time that I ask for guidance, I get told social psych.

VERY ambiguous.

I had a good day at COTS.

I tried to figure out why...

I'm trying to distance myself, anyhow, in case I wind up actually in that lab again.

I'm hoping milk and french fries will help my ailing head.

My class on Kant...it's like one of those movies that's basically okay but goes on way too long and you can think of several points where it could end.

I haven't felt this good,well, in awhile.

Another beautiful day.

8 of Wands at the bottom of the deck.

Wow. U Windsor is actually cool.

I'm back to feeling gray again.

I'm in Java ? and I hate this place yet can't seem to stop coming here.

I met with name deleted. I now have a paper topic. It'll be tough, but okay...I think.

Talked to girl who eerily reminds me of me...

Is it worth applying to schools in North and South Dakota to go into Clinical?

I just had an epiphany.

I can't wake up. Weird dreams.

So sick of everything being on my shoulders all the time--so much to do.

But I feel worse,too,because I'm so out of the loop.

I feel weird about not knowing that name deleted quit the name deleted lab.

Just when I most thought I'd be included.

Time to go to COTS.

Hungry.

Gee, I sure am glad I brought my stats book...ya know so I could lug it around all day and not open it once.

name deleted is sort of hard to read sometimes.

I woke up this morning.

But, as "underwear" played, I just stood in the window, watching the rain come down and...

I'm freaking out. COTS sucked.

Will this cut-price epiphany last?

I feel like everyone is staring at me.

It's over. All of it. My future just burst into flames before my eyes.

Had weird dreams. Jennifer was alive. But had schizophrenia.

name deleted is a niceman but kind of creeps me out a little bit.

Attitudes towards any difficulty at all in Psychology are so mercenary.

I'm freaking out.

She asks how I'm doing. I just make small talk and she tells me,"I'm sorry about what happened. You know it's what none of us wanted."

Fuck it. I love Philosophy.

I've had some very bad free floating anxiety lately. I also can't sleep well.

And then I got to thinking about how much of a disappointment this semester was.

Even name deleted did that in a personal way. No matter how much I tried to explain--he decided the "real" reason I was upset...

My sinuses are bothering me. A lot.

I'm grumpy and stewing over my own juices.

I've learned my lesson.

I had this disturbing dream last night. Several of them.

And then everything went south.

And rather than try to re-create it, I said enough already.

I'm enjoying my Philosophy classes.

It all went sour when I went into the Psychology building. I'm so weary...

Gonna go work on that paper.

I'm pissed.

Enough's fucking enough already. Screw Psychology.

When I didn't understand him, he was telling me "You're smart, you should know this."