Ick.

I don't think it should always be on my shoulders.

I loved it there. I felt so...in synch.

Now that was scary.

and it's not grandiosity if you can back it up...

My imagination runs away with me about everything...

I brought it up the other day. He didn't react.

Hope becomes akin to paying a hooker and claiming I found true love.

I slept a ton last night,had weird dreams...

I was making something out of something.

My previous theory makes sense.

I've been so many places...met so many people...

Huh...I wonder...?

We both lived in big houses...

...and it doesn't really matter

My chest hurts.

I changed my schedule again.

Well, I got up in a rage. I guess a pen went flying.

I HATE living in the midwest.

If I hadn't felt so damned guilty about thinking she was kinda selfish or self righteous...I wouldn't have let it stew so long...

I'm gonna go through all this and wind up in some crappy HR job, aren't I?

Can't I just be an existential novelist? December 10, 2003

Like a deer caught in the fucking headlights...

Sweet fucking Jesus is there nowhere I can go without hearing Christmas Carols?

Ugh. I hate the holidays. I hate all the obligatory shit. It's so...trite.

But it doesn't change much.

I go in circles

I was being forced to watch a really bad play.

Anyhow, I woke up sad, crying...

I hate it here. I truly do.

We were coming from somewhere past Colorado.

clinging DESPERATELY against any intrusion on how I might feel...

He keeps looking at me when he laughs...

Heh I AM paranoid but ONLY when they are actually out to get me.

Sigh, I wish there was someone extraneous...

Got an 'A' in Magic,Religion and Science...Yay!

For Philosophy...great strength...

Wow, there were A LOT of condescending idiots in Austin.

That's sad.

I need a friend like name deleted at Dreamstreet, that tells people I'm like a kid sister and makes people leave me alone.

...my brain is foggy.

I had bad dreams last night.

The future indicates happiness, social pleasantries and gain...

Chaos, Karmic change...

Well, I often am unclear...

I can replace one urge with another...

In other words, things will suck but the by-product will be good...

Something right out of Charmed. Oh yes and walking around naked.

My archetypes lean more towards the tarot than the bible.

Heh, I think the guy I used to see in my classroom before cognitive is gonna be my teacher...

My sense of continuity comes from within...

I got to the bus stop and he was there waiting for me.

I feel like I am crawling out of my skin--actually my skin feels like it'd like to hop the next freight train out of town.

I didn't get to bed til 7 am.

I always feel good when I talk to friends from Chicago.

My skin still feels ready to crawl off and run away...

eww...those cookies were disgustingly gooey.

Danger Will Robinson!

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