I am so...pissed!!!

Resolved...to do the Philosophy thing.

I got really mad at the Psi Chi meeting. Angrier than I think I've ever let anyone in the department...

I got a new hair-do.

It took three hours but it looks really good!

I have Asia Argento hair, complete with cherry bomb highlights.

Melancholia.

The last physical anthro reading was actually kinda interesting.

The Psi Chi people are getting out of hand, I...

I crashed.

Will take name deleted again...Eh, I did well last time. Continental Rationalism. Descartes, Leibniz or Spinoza. Wonder who it will be? All? Just one?

but then I said,"...but I hate law and the only other thing I could do is teach Philosophy."

God, this sucks. I have a bad cold. the day I leave for Tucson,too.

I've been sick so much this semester. I can't help but feel it's a reflection of just the PROFOUND amount of stress I'm under.

I just want to extricate myself from this.

I enjoyed myself in Tucson.

It was surreal at times.

He went to a ton of trouble for me with the party. Apparently he really hyped it.

I couldn't sleep last night.

I really want to run with ideas in neuroscience the way some people do with Philosophy but I worry about sounding stupid...

Stupid Psi Chi thing in a bit.

I lost my monkey phone. (or was it stolen...?)

That was a short lived venture. il diario in italiano. Well, I dropped Italian.

Before neuroethology. I went scourging all over in case my cell phone got turned in but no luck. I'm pretty damned sure I was pickpocketed.

I ased how old this was in rats. He said,"I don't know...what's old for a rat? Three years? Five?

Something doesn't feel right--

My teeth hurt.

We called off the Belize trip.

-- didn't answer my email.

I am sosososososososo so sick of feeling like nothing I do is ever good enough. I really am.

He's always correcting me too.

I so would rather wander the ruins, see the howler monkeys, the sea turtles--

My labmates hate me.

I have nothing to lose by doing this.

Oh my God. I think I just got fired from the lab.

I need to finish reading about drosophilia.

I packed up, didn't say a word, really.

I'm having a frustrating day.

He's really made me self conscious with his hyper-critical nitpicking..

I'm disheartened.

And research is valuable but only when evaluated critically.

Saying we don't know is not the same thing as saying something is inferior...

I've been busting my ass to no avail.

I've worked harder this year for 'B's than I did for 'A's in the previous two.

whywhywhywhywhywhy doesn't he just be my friend?

grabbed me...pushed me...left...turned off our electric...ASSHOLE.

I need to get away.

I want to forget. I want the bad to stop outweighing the good. I want the shadow of that first year to stop hanging over my head.

I don't want to do this stupid scheduling crap at the lab.

I hate Psi Chi,too. I need to get away from all that.

Last night, I realized how accurate the cards were. What it told me about name deleted...it fit to a tee.